今天是这个孩子25岁的生日,却不能对他说一声“生日快乐”。因为他在年仅6岁时就被失踪了。他被称为“全球最年幼的政治犯”。他就是西藏至关重要的11世班禅喇嘛。整整19年,他就这么被公然地,从这个世界上消失了,而世界却一直都无可奈何!
我曾写过关于班禅喇嘛的两首诗。一首写于1995年12月的一天,当天我原来的单位——西藏文联召开大会传达有关新班禅被党确立的文件。一首写于2005年10月的一天,读罢BBC前记者伊莎贝·希尔顿(Isabel Hilton)著述的《寻找班禅喇嘛》一书。这两首诗由 A.E.Clark先生译为英文。在这里再次一并贴出,纪念被失踪19年的11世班禅喇嘛。
11世班禅喇嘛根敦•确吉尼玛,于1989年4月25日出生于西藏自治区那曲地区嘉黎县,父亲名叫贡确平措,母亲名叫德庆曲珍,他还有一个哥哥和一个姐姐。1995年5月17日,在尊者达赖喇嘛宣布6岁的他为十世班禅喇嘛转世灵童之后的第三天,他被中国当局从他的家中带走,被永久监禁在无人知道的地方。据悉,他的母亲曾哭诉:“世界上所有的母亲中,唯有自己是最为悲哀和伤心的母亲,因为作为一个孩子的母亲,连自己儿子的死活都无法获知。”
十二月
1、
听哪,大谎就要弥天
林中的小鸟就要落下两只
他说:西藏,西藏,正在幸福
愤怒的女孩不节食
遍地的袈裟也在变色
他们说:为了保住这条命
但那一个,啊!
滚烫的血液,滚烫的血液
谁在来世放声恸哭?
2、
乌云!崩溃!
这是我此刻的幻象
我也知道,此刻沉默
就永远沉默
千万张拉长的脸啊
请敞开心扉
那颜色尤为绛红的人
牺牲一次
因为生命之树常青
灵魂,就是灵魂
3、
更大的挫折!
万木从未有过的凋零
小人物噤若寒蝉
那样合拢的双手
却被生生斩断
要填满鹰犬的胃
啊,一串无形的念珠
谁有资格,从肮脏的
尘世,毅然拾起?
1995-12,拉萨
班禅喇嘛
如果时间可以抹煞谎言,
十年是否足够?
一个儿童长成聪颖少年,
却像一只鹦鹉,喃喃学舌,
那是乞求主子欢心的说辞!
另一个儿童,他在哪里?
他手腕上与生俱来的伤痕,
是他的前世,在更早的十年
在北京某个暗无天日的牢房,
被一付手铐,紧紧地捆缚。
而今,渺无音讯的儿童,
是否已经遍体鳞伤?!
如果黑暗有九重,
他和他,身陷的是第几重?
如果光明有九重,
他和他,神往的是第几重?
也许就在黑暗与光明的每一重
他在身陷着,他在神往着......
贡觉松!如此颠倒的人世间,
怎样的无常之苦,
竟在班禅喇嘛的身上轮回示现!
(贡觉松:佛法僧三宝)
2005-10-12,北京
December
1.
"Hear ye!" The big lie shall blot the sky,
Two sparrows in the wood shall fall.
"Tibet," he says, "Tibet is fine and flourishing!"
The furious girl will not bite her tongue.
Everywhere the monastic robe has lost its color.
They say: It's to save our skin.
But that one, oh,
The steaming blood poured out, the hot blood!
In the next life, who will grieve for him?
2.
Storm clouds! Doom!
In my mind's eye I see.
I know if I don't speak now
I'll be silent forever.
Sullen millions,
Lift up your hearts.
He was sacrificed once,
That man of deep red hue.
But as the tree of life is evergreen,
A soul is always a soul.
3.
A worse defeat!
Thouands of trees, blighted as never before.
The little folk are quiet as a cricket in the cold.
The pair of praying hands
Was chopped off
To cram the bellies of kites and curs.
Oh, that rosary unseen,
Who is worthy with a firm hand
To pick it up from the slime of this world?
December 1995, Lhasa
The Panchen Lama
If time can cover up a lie,
Is ten years enough?
A child matures into a clever youth,
But like a parrot, mumbles by rote
The phrases that will please his masters.
The other child, where is he?
The scar-like birthmark on his wrist recalls
His previous life, before, when for ten years
He sat trussed with tight handcuffs
In some Beijing cell no ray of light could reach.
What bruises mar him now,
The child no one hears from?
If there are nine levels to the darkness,
At which one are they trapped - he, and the other?
If there are nine levels to the light,
To which do they aspire - he, and the other?
Perhaps, in each phase of darkness and of light,
Where one is trapped, the other aspires.
Kunchoksum! The world's turned upside down,
That the pain of impermanence,
Of samsara, has struck home to the Panchen Lama!
12 October 2005, Beijing
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